Saturday, January 20, 2007

Has It Always Been Like This?

It was only a few years ago that my child-mind first opened up to the world of actual things, and already in this short time I've learned a lot about the secret lives and intentions of the people in my life as well as humanity as a whole.

-The hidden downfalls of my heroes (the extramarital affairs of Martin Luther King Jr., as just one example.)

-The dysfunctional pasts of my parents and their families.

-The alarming percentage of people I know who have been molested.

-The personas people create to mask their egos.

-The rampancy of pornography in our homes.

-Various corruptions in business, politics, and religion.

-My own disordered nature and self-centered tendencies.

Children may "know" a lot about the imperfections of the world, yet somehow they remain unbothered within their protective bubble worlds. They may vaguely understand that there are many problems in society, but this fact does not upset their underlying, wordless belief in real goodness, beauty, and truth. Their lives have not yet been severed from the dream.

But when the bubble pops the stark facts come tumbling in. This world is not as it was meant to be, and worse yet...even the people who claim to care have dirty secrets and self-centered interests looming beneath their supposed ideals.

Does real goodness exist? I believe that I have encounted it, but it is quite rare. The only thing that keeps me going are the few glimpses of it I've received and my own genuine, though underdeveloped, desire to attain it in my life.

If only there was a perfect man or woman somewhere. They would be all the proof that we'd need. What would we do then, if love became a definite thing, something we could see with our eyes? Would we dare to sell it short then with the poor standards of our partial lives?

3 comments:

Leon said...

Good points

grace gunawan said...

if only we can all live in a bubble world of the childhood, where dreams are realities :)

Olive said...

"If only there was a perfect man or woman somewhere. They would be all the proof that we'd need. What would we do then, if love became a definite thing, something we could see with our eyes?"

AE: don't look for the perfect man. BE the perfect man. You don't need to follow anyone else's example, you have the perfect man in your heart; you ARE the proof ... you already see and know love. You have a conscience. Don't look for something outwardly that you have within you, that was there when you were a child. The spirit you had as a child was real before it was corrupted. It was not a dream.